Miracles Abound!

I had two women I sponsor celebrate one year in the last couple of days.  TWO!  Both of them beautiful souls, tortured but beautiful nonetheless, inside and out.  I am so honored to know these women.  So grateful to be in their lives and they in my mine.

There is something magical about the engagement of people who are living a miraculous life.  Each time we meet and engage, something happens that can only be described as a spiritual experience.

I wonder, quite often actually, how I ever lived when I didn’t believe in miracles.  Where I mistook all the miraculous shit that was going down in my life as mere coincidence, a one off or some other slight that stripped the miracle title from its rightful owner.

I feel like my life, from its inception to this moment right here could be called a course in miracles.  I know the title belongs to someone else, but hey, if something fits, it just fits.

The fact I am sober today, fucking miracle.

The fact I do not want a drink or believe it is a solution to anything in my life, fucking miracle.

The fact I am gainfully employed, miracle.

The fact I got to raise my children, miracle.

The fact I have the love and respect of my family, children, friends and co-workers, huge miracle.

The fact that I do not hate myself so much that I want to kill myself on the installment plan anymore, fucking miracle.

The fact that I can see it isn’t all about me, my plans, designs and schemes, miracle.

The fact I have women in my life that I love that love me back and we help each other through the machinations of life in progress, miracle.

The fact I am willing, daily, to grow in directions that terrify the shit out of me, miracle.

The fact I have a God in my life I can do business with, miracle.

The fact I can show up for my life, sober, relatively sane and willing everyday to learn more about God, this life and you, miracle.

The fact that pretty much everyone I know and love is on a similar path and journey, MIRACLE!

I have so much to be grateful for in every moment I get to be here.  So many miracles I can’t even count them all and I am sure, because I am still self centered, I miss a great many of them due to my own self involvement.

Today, though, I sit quietly and easy with the knowledge that two women I love very, very much are just beginning this life time of living happy, joyous and free.  Living each day in the miraculous relief from addiction. Being given a second, third and maybe millionth chance at living a life full of wonder and purpose.

Left to my own devices, I would have said no thank you to any miracles in my life.  I would have said, “I got this and you can save your wholesome spiritual bullshit, thanks but no thanks.”

But the first miracle, was that I lived long enough to get the second miracle.  And that miracle is "though I came to scoff, I remained to pray."  And I have been living that way ever since.  And the fact that I get to now participate and witness this happening in the lives of others????

M I R A C L E ! ! ! ! !

Again...still.