Yep, by some stroke of bad luck, I have it again. I have no idea where I got it as no one around me has had it. But when I started feeling terrible the other day, I thought, “Sinus infection!” Because I get them all the time. So with a fever I went to bed after taking some antibiotics and prayed that I would feel better in the morning. I didn’t. And as I lay in bed, coming to after a night of feverish dreams, sweats and being frigid, it dawned on me that I had felt this way before...like twice before.
I got a test kit and it took the time for the fluid to reach the first line to tell me what I feared, positive for COVID, again. I was so upset that I waited a few minutes and took another one just to be sure. And just like the first, it was positive within seconds, no need to wait the 15 minutes.
I am not sure why or how I got here again. But I am here that much is clear. I am grateful it came when it did and not next week so that my daughter and I would have to miss Taylor Swift in San Jose. That would have crushed us both.
Apparently, the universe thought I should slow down. So here I am in bed again, recovering from something that I feel like I should have been done with a long time ago...
My symptoms are not too bad and now that the fever is gone, I feel much better. Like a million times better. So now I just have to sit still and wait until I am done with the quarantine time and can go about my life. Hopefully Saturday. Please God let it be Saturday.
I am glad it was me and not my daughter or my mom or dad. I am happy to take one for the team even though it means that I am missing out on seeing someone that I really wanted to see, a lunch that I was really looking forward to and the opening night of the Xgames. It just wasn’t meant to be. And I am grateful for the level of acceptance I have and that I know this too shall pass.
I am never sure what my lesson is supposed to be in this life. And I am not sure why getting COVID three times now is part of that lesson but it is. And I am trying to use the down time for my benefit. Catching up on emails, reading, watched three seasons of a show. All super productive, ok, the binge watching Netflix wasn’t all that productive but I needed something to keep my mind occupied so that I didn’t go to that place where I go so frequently where I think things should be different.
I am right where I am supposed to be: in bed, snuggled with cats and a dog and my daughter (she is apparently not worried at all about catching COVID from me). And for today, that is a great place to be.
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